I'm so trying and not trying at the same time.

I can't believe its been this long and I'm still fucking around.

I think I'm going to be the kind of person who is career minded first, because its really what I want to do. I think to be a good teacher, you have to be completely 100% in it. I don't think I could have kids and be a good teacher.

Can I just say that I'm extremely good at living 2 lives.

And I'm obsessing about this kid Makaio from last week, who despite his face rash, was incredibly beautiful and would fart and then hug me and fart at the same time. And run around and giggle and ate beads and made up songs and cried the first day because his fish had just died. Everyone in the class gave him their condolences.

I hope on my trip with Joseph that I seriously just take advantage of the opportunity we have to travel, even if it is the north east coast. I don't want to get nervous, or scared, or stay in and think too many times about things. I just want to live without my own limits for one fucking week.